Apart from it obviously coming way too soon, I think for the most part I’ve been lucky with the symptoms/side effects of menopause. Like I’ve said before, a few years ago I had terrible night sweats, and a few weeks before my diagnosis, I did start having major hot flushes but when I’ve read about things like mood swings, feeling low, and just the emotional roller coaster, I feel like I’ve got off fairly lightly. You may be thinking, ‘I bet others disagree!!’ and you may be right, but even Mr M said that he hadn’t noticed any change in my moods or behaviour. So, I am one of the lucky ones for sure. However, I have noticed recently it doesn’t take much to tip me into a low. The last few days, I’ve been feeling really productive, getting things ticked off the To Do list, and sorting out the trip to Spain for the treatment. But yesterday the cheap flights had gone before we’d got round to booking them, and just like that, I’d gone from all bouncy and positive to really low. Why didn’t we just book them? Why wait?? It’s not a rational reaction. There are still flights available, just a bit more expensive but I was down. Then today, we were both busy and the prices went up again, and that threw me again. But then I emailed our consultant in Spain with some questions, and his reply had the schedule for the transfer (this is really happening!) and all of a sudden, I’m feeling positive again. I guess it could just be me, but nowadays, I’m always wondering is it me, or is it the menopause? Like something’s taken over my body (and mind) and I’m not sure if I’m really fully in control anymore. Then I guess the next question is, do I want it to be me, and admit I’m this slightly irrational person prone to low moods, or do I want to be able to blame it on the menopause!? A tricky one.