I feel down today about everything. We’ve been getting all the tests that we need done, and yesterday I had an Aquascan. This is a procedure where they insert a catheter into your uterus and then fill your uterus up with saline solution. This gives a better 3D view of the uterus to check for any anomalies, as well as giving it a ‘wash’ and allowing the doctor to scrap the endometrium lining if necessary, to prime the uterus for the egg transfer. It was a fairly uncomfortable procedure, which I was told was to be expected as I hadn’t had children, but my stomach was quite sore afterwards and still is today. It’s got me down about this whole situation, when I’ve been feeling so positive most of the time. Also, we found out yesterday that the first round of drugs will cost £700+!! And that’s just for starters. We knew it was going to be expensive, but bloody hell! On top of the actual egg donation programme cost, and the hundreds of pounds for each visit to the consultant, it is piling up. If it weren’t for me, we wouldn’t have to be going through any of this. Mr M is great, and says the money doesn’t matter, and we’re lucky to have some savings we can use. He said if it was him with a problem, I wouldn’t care would I, and I genuinely wouldn’t but still. I wish I wasn’t putting him through this long drawn out process. Eurgh, I hate feeling like this when I felt so positive. Bloody hormones! I just keep telling myself it will be totally worth it if it works, and hopefully I’ll feel better tomorrow.