So very grateful

Now we’ve made the decision to definitely go ahead with our egg donation treatment in a few months time, it feels like a huge weight has been lifted and I can go on our belated honeymoon without all the worry and indecision flying around in my head. But it’s also allowed me to step back a…

This is really happening

We had an appointment with our consultant today. Mr M had a lot of questions so it was good for him to get all those answered and she basically said we're good to go whenever we decide to go ahead. She definitely agreed that it would be better to wait for a period of time…

It’s good to talk

When you're considering egg donation, you have to have a couples counselling session with an egg donation specialist to make sure you are aware of everything that goes with having a baby in that way, and that the counsellor thinks you are ok to go ahead. When I got my diagnosis, I called the counsellor…

Officially hitched!

We did it! We are now officially married and Mr M is now my husband, as of last month!  It has been absolutely perfect, and we couldn't have asked for a better day. It’s a bit strange as it’s almost like I'm living two parallel lives, one where the wedding and partying after and our…

Therapy

I had my second counselling session today. When I went back to see the GP at work after the diagnosis, she recommended it, and I've always been open to counselling for whatever reason. After the initial diagnosis, and accompanying devastation, I feel like I came round to accepting what had happened and the idea of…

Hit the pause button

I've been away for a few days with my sister and best friend as a bit of a hen do before I get married next month. I have had THE best time, just talking and going to the beach, visiting different towns, shopping, eating and drinking delicious food and wine. It’s been a real tonic.…

If only women knew

I’ve been thinking today how you take your fertility for granted when you’re younger. You never think you might not be able to have children if you should want to (unless something awful happens medically of course), and worry more about getting pregnant than not being able to get pregnant. But knowing what I know…

Life is a rollercoaster

God, I'm all over the place at the moment. 10 days on from the diagnosis, and I am convinced that egg donation is the right thing for us. I have literally thought about nothing else since my diagnosis; I've googled, talked to Mr M, my sister, my acupuncturist.  And I don't know if it’s because…

Less of a woman

We had sex this morning but I just felt like I wanted to cry. I don't feel like a proper woman anymore. I'm still trying to get my head around how this could have happened so quickly. What I can't understand is where were all the symptoms?? The mood swings? Hot flushes? Admittedly I had…